This entry is a little different then normal but this was what was on my heart.

Wednesday's are one of my favorite days for several reasons. I know I am late in getting this up but that's because I was busy enjoying Wednesday so DEAL WITH IT! On Wednesday I only work until noon. It is one of those silly little antiquated things about our small town. Don't ask me. ANYWHOOO If you stick around long enough you will undoubtedly hear me refer to Wednesday as "TT Day". My Terror Twin, "TT", Brandy, and I claim Wednesday afternoon as our time to write and chat. It is special to us even though we write and chat any other time we get a chance as well!   Yesterday however I discovered another reason to love Wednesday.

My son Max is 7. He is my pride and joy. As an only child he is of course spoiled rotten but HEY...he's ours!  On normal week days I don't get off work until 5:00. With my husband, Mike's, factory...well you never know. SO to be safe Max rides the bus to the sitter's house on those days. Most days Mike is sitting there in her drive way waiting to pick him up and there is no "sitting" involved. However if Mike has to work late then Max is safe & sound. On Wednesday's because I am already at home by the time Max gets outa school he rides the bus all the way home. Being the psycho mother I happen to be, I start listening for the school bus as the time gets closer and will stand in the front door watching him depart the bus and make his way up the drive way, just as I watch the reverse process every morning, never leaving my Mommy spot until he in safe in his seat and the bus pulls away. By now you all probably think I am CRAZY   but HEY...my kid ...my thing! LOL

ANYWHO...It really hit me yesterday, as he was walking up to the house, how different my world would be if I didn't have Max in it. If you would have asked me 9-10 years ago about kids I would have told you NO WAY! I really to this day can't tell you WHAT changed my mind but I can tell you where I was when it hit me. I had went to Toronto, Canada to visit my friends, Crystal & Bruce, for a couple of days. Crystal and I were walking through the GORGEOUS Eaton Centre Mall. If you ever get the chance to go there I HIGHLY recommend it! As a mater of fact I highly recommend the entire city. It is a beautiful, CLEAN city with very interesting and friendly people. SO...as we are walking through the mall I find myself stopped in front of a childrens store, entranced by the toddler display in the window. I have no idea how long I stood there or worse yet how long I would have if Crystal hadn't interupted my thoughts with five very simple words.

"You want one, don't you?"

ROFLMAO God help me...the answer was yes! So when I returned from Canada I told Mike my thoughts and we came upon a very simple plan...we would let GOD decide.   LOL We would stop preventing it and leave it up to the big guy. I guess we got our answer quickly enough. FIRST TRY!    We were prego!

Yes BF... that would have been your birthday! ROFL With Shari, who was living with us at the time, out of the house to celebrate we did a little of our own!      

I can't possibly put into words the feelings that washed over me yesterday as I watched Max walk to the house. The feeling that I get when he walks into the room. The feeling I get when I stroke his hair and kiss his cheek or the top of his head.     If you are a mother...I hope you already know the feeling I am talking about. If you are not...I pray that someday you will KNOW the feeling I am talking about. It's the best "High" you will ever know.

PEACE!  

~Hussy